I don’t know if it’s just me, but a ray of sunlight on a dark and cloudy day really lightens up my mood.

Just like today. The sky was dark and cloudy, but from a distant gap, rays of sunlight escaped the murky clouds and managed to shine on me and the area around. I felt spirits rising, it felt that today was a day when nothing could go wrong. The moment was sacred.

I don’t know if it’s just me, but a ray of sunlight on a sunny and clear day would not have made any difference on me.

This is a metaphor for something Greater, something more meaningful. This is beyond dark clouds and sunrays, this is about how I function. I fail to acknowledge Great things at Great times, but will be more than happy to acknowledge good things at lesser times.

As I said, I don’t know if it’s just me.

A man standing on the top of the cliff falls much harder then the man standing in the valley. The man in the valley would even experience a positive relief when he climbs up to ground level, while the man on the cliff most likely would die.

If your ambitions are high, at least get a parachute.

Haven’t written anything for quite a while, sorry. In fact, I’m not sorry and if you expected and or enjoyed an apology, fuck you. Ok, here goes.

Feminism is becoming more and more popular, which is something I like. Therefore, to meet the new demands on equality between men and women by feminists, I have put forward an idea that might seem controversial at first, but which you will see follows perfect feministic logic. So, if you are an open minded person feel free to continue reading. If not, please slowly move your mouse pointer towards the upper right corner of the screen and click on what kind of looks like a 45 degrees rotated crucifix. Then, leave the computer and waste your time on something such as studying, err I mean watching TV.

My idea is simple. The average life expectancy of a man is at 72 years, while that of a woman is 79 years in the USA (similar to the entire west). Since we do not yet have the technology to add 7 years to each man’s life, the only logical thing to do for a more equal society is to kill all women after they have lived for 72 years. Of course this causes problems, because of the fact that people are different which results in them having different amounts of living years, but we can not forget that going for the average is always the best (i.e. the average male salary is higher than the average female salary).

Think about it, it’s really not that bad. We could do it professionally, for instance we could provide them with a death day celebration, funded by tax (of course) that looks something like this:

04:00 - Wake up, get ready
05:00 – Chat with family and friends
08:00 – Go to your local funeral shop and pick a coffin you like, it will of course be free of cost to you as it will be funded by the state.
10:00 – Write your will
12:00 – You will be given money to eat in any restaurant of your choice.
14:00 – A lecture about the different ways in which you could be killed is given, the choices include, but are not limited to: poison injection, gas, electrical shock, or jumping on a cliff. Personally, I would choose to jump off a cliff, because that would be a true once-in-a-lifetime experience. That is, if I was female.
16:00 – This is the time where you would normally die on anxiety, but no fear! Free sessions with psychologists are provided.
16:30 – A discussion with other people that are going to be killed the same time as you will take place, where you could chat and tell each other about your lifes.
17:30 – Rest time, gather thoughts, write some final letters, etc.
18:00 – Time with family, confess what you dared not before, take some photos, etc.
23:45 – Meet with your family/friends at the location where you wanted to die, and they could help you countdown to your death. Do not forget your final words.
01:00 – Party for family and friends of those who deceased. (Don’t worry about the party, you won’t be living then.)

Nice huh? Best of all, it won’t cost you a penny!

Or, we could just scrap the whole equality debate because by now you should have noticed that it’s nothing but shit. Equality will never occur, not between man and man, man and woman, woman and woman.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m all for equality, but the first step to a more equal society is realizing that there is no such thing as equality. Then, and only from there could we try with different methods to make it more equal.

Feminism is not equality. It is a set of rules set up by ugly male-looking females who hate their lives and direct all anger towards males. Their rules attempt to counter the principles science, nature, and even equality (and God for those who believe)! Males and females are different, females give birth to the child, and are equipped with means of raising it. Nature.

Taking care of children could get in the way of their carriers. So what if you can’t excel as fast as your male co-workers? If you weren’t so much against men, you should have a man that can excel, provide and make you proud. Man and woman go hand in hand, this is all so elementary, yet so hard for some to grasp.

Endless examples could be made, but in the end they all point in one direction -> feminists are irrational, anti-logic, anti-nature, anti-life creatures. Feminism sucks! I tried not to make this the average feminism-bashing text. If it is that to you, then you also suck.

It the title angers you, skip to text in italics below.

Judge people for who they are and not where they come from? Nah, scratch that.

It does not work. Well, it sounds good at least.

Everyday I see people doing things that disgust me, the same people who claim that they are anti racism. If you do not have the same skincolor as most of the people in the country, you will be inspected extra carefully. If you can act better than them, they will have no excuse to hate you, but if you do cheap/disgusting things people will eventually hate you, and the place you descend from. Basically, you are making a fool out of yourself and your country, in exchange for some temporary small gain.

What are the things people do that disgust me? Mostly selfish stuff, such as grabbing a handful of pepperbags from McDonalds after a visit there. Perhaps taking so much stuff on a self-pick place that others don’t get any. Things like that. Who does this? Go figure.

Cheap people, basically. You do not have to be poor to be a cheap person, but instead the actions define. When in doubt, look at the person previous to you and do the same.

Stop doing stupid shit and people might not hate you (your people) as much, don’t lay all the blame on the fact that they generalize. Also, remember that your actions will be seen as the actions of your people.

– Now I’m not saying that all foreign people lack etiquette, not at all. Some do. Unfortunately, it is always a small amount of people who destroy for the crowd. In this case, a small amount foreigners make their own people look bad, it can’t be avioided. Before yelling and hating at racists, look at yourself first. –

Not doing so is just like dressing like a whore and at the same yelling “Go feminism!” The only way for you to gain respect is be better than someone else.

Until some basic etiquette is learnt, go racism!

I’ve been avoiding deep stuff for some time now. Many reasons for that, perhaps. This might be the start of a long line serious stuff.

Why do I not feel religious? No, it is not for I am less human or spiritual than those supposedly religious. The same reason forces me into the extreme center of the political spectrum. The reason is that nothing is ever for it in itself. When was religion just for what it was supposed to be; to believe? I often hear reports of how religion was used to control the minds of people, just like how politics of today is reported to control our thinking.

To put it in a simple way for the intellectually handicapped: Too much bullshit involved.

I could be a Christian, but their arguments to why God existed are crap, what they do is convince me that their God (the Christian God) did not exist. I could be a supporter of any political party, but nah. Their arguments are too dumb, as in underestimating the thinking abilities of people. I dislike the way they do things, especially when rival parties are having debates. The methods they use to try bringing each other down are dumb (same meaning as before) and disgusting. So, nah.

When was anything ever for it in itself?
When was working just working, and not finding any chance possible to slack/advance career/hit on sexy co-worker/etc?
When was a modeling just a job, and not a lifestyle filled with different drug addictions/parties?
Since when was a blog just a weblog, and not some community for weird mid-aged mothers who have too much free time or have just discovered the internet? (Which is why I don’t really want to be associated with the term “blogger”)

Nothing is ever just for itself. There is too much bullshit involved in everything. Layers and layers of pure shit that you dig through to see things the way they really are, and the problem is no one will tell you how stuff really are, because they are all filled with various amounts of shit which make them see things differently.

I’ll continue stating the obvious some other time.

So what? I’m only like 4½ years late, as usual. (Oh yeah, this is about the 9/11 conspiracy thing)

There are many “what if’s”, most are stupid. Some are valid. A stupid one could be “what if your reading this post and jerking off at the same time?”, or is it really that stupid? I have no way to check.

You go: What the hell???

Some “what if’s” sound even more stupid, like “what if 9/11 was an insider job?”, or is it really stupid? We have no way to check.

Well, break is almost over school (oh no!) is starting soon and this is the time when the depression and anxiety kicks in for all the unfinished *ehrmm* unstarted homework I planned to do.

I’ve been doing this one-movie-a-day-before-I-sleep thing and yesterday I ran out of movies to watch. So I do what I always do when I have nothing/too much to do, put random retarded stuff into the Google searchbar! Out of pure randomness I found a site with lots of 9/11 documentaries free for download.

So I download this documentary called “Loose Change” without any expectations, and fall asleep shortly after turning it on.

I watch it again this morning. Basically it suggests that: 1) The twin towers were blown up by the American government. 2-5) Some similar stuff I don’t remember. If someone were to tell me that “The twin towers were blown up by the American government!”, I’d go “Riiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiite. Maybe you should go to your UFO/newagehippie club or something.” But hey, unlike Farenheight 911 which was heavily censored to be allowed for public screening, this documentary was not released in cinemas, which means it kinda has a good point and a valid argument. At first I thought it was made by newagehippiegeeks, but then I noticed it wasn’t, and got a little bittersweet dissapointment.

So what if the Bush administration killed 3000+ civilians to scare you and gain power in the next election and find an excuse to attack Iraq for oil? So what? Who gives a crap - that’s the kind of mentality that will win. Hmm, this entry has gone from kinda good to bullshit, so I’ll wrap it up.

Here is part one and here is part two of Loose Change. Here are more documentaries for the really passionate ones.

What if a meteor will hit Earth exactly 17 seconds after you have read this word and terminate all life, whichwillkillallofusincludingmeandfinallymakemeGod? Roar.

Remember when you used to tell others that you’d fsck their families? I do. That’s what I used to say when people told me to fsck myself. Talk is talk, nothing more. When you make talk like that reality it gets sick. Who would search for every member of a person’s family and fsck them one by one? Apparantly the “Paratroopers of the Multi-National Forces” would.

They found and took 3 of Saddam’s relatives into custody. “Confiscated” (stole) 300,000 dollars and a cache of light arms. Later they released one of them, two still remain in custody. Saddam’s family is getting fscked.

The Iraqi campaign is sick. I fsck their families.

A new year is coming. While some gather around friends and family in order to celebrate the coming year, others live under a lot worse circumstances. Now I’m not talking about the malnourished kids in Africa (that you hear too often), I am talking about Saddam. Yes, the “dictator/terrorist/other things” guy.

I was thinking: “Damn, new year coming so soon…” when suddenly my thought slipped to “… I wonder how Saddam is having it.”

How would it feel if one day you were the leader of an entire country, living in luxury — and the next day getting beaten/tortured by american brats (new recruits) in jail?

Now before you start giving me crap for what I just wrote, continue reading.

Firstly, if your American, stfu. 41% of you believe that Saddam has strong links with Al Qaeda, 22% believe that he helped plan the 9/11 attacks, and another 26% that Iraq had WMDs. The fact remains, Americans are stupid. 89% of the population are lost, and the remaining 11% are overwhelmed by a stupid majority. O yeah, the statistics came from today’s news if your wondering. American democracy is like the biggest generalization body ever, and it seems to be working. I guess I’ll also generalize; All Americans are stupid and should stfu.

For the rest of you, try to understand my point. Since Al Qaeda took blame for the 9/11 attacks the USA (lead by Bush) has been vigorously trying to find Osama, without success. The government was losing support by each day, something had to be done. Wait, Iraq has WMDs, Saddam is linked with Al Qaeda, he helped plan the 9/11 attacks, he is Santa Claus, he eats children, etc.

I don’t understand, USA set up the UN to keep world peace. Then they completely ignore UN’s order to NOT invade Iraq, showing no respect to all the contries which rejected with their veto rights. If another country would have done the same thing - any other country - , the US would turn the entire world against them.

When I ask people why Saddam is a bad person, they go: “He killed a lot of innocents”, I usually reply with something like: “He went and killed them one by one personally? In wars, the most people killed are innocent civilians. More or less invalid point.” … “Oh.. hmm. Umm, will you still be my friend… please?” Another common argument is: “He killed his own people.” So you mean that if you are a parent, you should discipline the children of others and not your own? If you were to try to disclipline my future kids I’d kill you (or ruin your life, legally), no doubt.

I think I can agree that Saddam has ordered killings of many civilians, brutally (this we all agree on). I think I can agree that Bush has ordered killings of many civilians, brutally (Iraq war, civilian casualties, 3k soldiers lost). Toture from both sides too. If one of them were to be put on trial, both should be, or neither.

This is a win-win situation for the US lead by Bush:
1. The termination of a highly influencial muslim leader (Christianity vs. Islam) for one.
2. Winning an election too, he made a mess in Iraq, only he could clean it up. If I were to go diarrhea-spree in your house, who would you want to clean it; me or some random dude?
3. A show of force, other countries will fear them more.
4. Usage of old war equiptment which would otherwise have costed millions to dispose and maintain.
5. Testing of new, prototype weaponry.
6. Oil
7. Excuse for a military buildup for later use.
8. Im sure there is tonnes more. Half a tonne for what I’ve forgotten, and another half for the secret shit they do in private. You know, wars aren’t the most transparent things.

So Saddam is prolly sitting in his cell getting beaten and eating shit food, and would probably spend his New Year that way. All while his American counterpart is having fun celebrating. Nice.

I have more to tell, but bah.. this will do. Getting quite tired. Seems this turned out to be yet another America bashing article, aww. If I don’t write something before New Year, then let this be my last post of the year. Happy New year people!

Other than that… free Saddam! (+ flame me)

What do you do when something totally random and fscked up happens to you? How random and fscked up?

Well, I was changing after working out. I put my shoes on the floor next to some dirt.

An old man comes. Average height, white hair, hanging titties, hanging stomach, balls bigger than dick, crooked back, finnish, poor Swedish. All naked.

Translation:
- Why do you have your shoes on the floor?
- Huh?
- Why shoes on floor? Look dirty now! (pointing at dirt oh the floor)
- It wasn’t me!
- Look it dirty now!
- What the fsck it wasn’t me, look at my shoes, do they look dirty?
- You see ground is dirty?
- But what the fsck it wasn’t me!
- Go clean it up
- What the fsck do you want?
- Do you want to be a human?
- … (???) it wasn’t me

Finally, he shut up. 1 min later when staff went by he told the staff “Look what he did!”. Old man goes tale-telling, bad. Luckily I did not get into trouble as the staff dude cleaned the floor just like a slave, good puppy.

Later when I went out of the gym he was standing outside watching me. He’s eyes kept following me. So I held up my index finger for him to look at until I was out of sight.

Owned. Go cry/have a heart attack/have a seizure.